Lit by Your wife, Chris xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx 6th February 2019
I know I haven't sent you a message for a while but it doesn't mean that I haven't stopped thinking about you all the time. You are ALWAYS in my mind trying to shut out the bad times and focus on the good times but sometimes its hard. I have been keeping busy which helps a bit and I am still going to counselling. I think this is helping as it gets all the bad stuff out and tears are a great release. The hardest part for me is to think that you suffered so much and I know you kept a lot back I think to protect me but I wish you could have talked to me when all this happened and maybe the treatment could have prevented your suffering. It breaks my heart to think of the time you spent in hospital and all the pain you had to go through. The 26years we had together has just flown by and I couldn't have asked for a more kind, caring, thoughtful, lovely man to meet than YOU. When I look at your picture when we first met, I call you my handsome man because you were beautiful to me and you made my heart flutter each time I saw you. I couldn't bear to be parted from you which is why I am struggling without you. I hope you are looking down on me and remember, I love you SO much, you were my world and always will be. All my love forever.