Still thinking of you my darling every day, all the time. Last week was very bad week when I couldn't stop crying for you. Trying to keep busy so went out in the garden as its been a lovely sunny week but just cried as you were weren't there to enjoy the sunshine with me in our garden. Even feeding the birds was sad for me as that used to be your job and realised you will never be able to do that again or sit in the sunshine having our lunch. The extension and the garden was all done for us to enjoy in our old age but now that has all gone. I'm trying to remember all the happier times and everything we did together but there are days when some of the bad things happen and its difficult. If you are looking down on me remember that I love you so very, very much and always will. You were my world and life without you is heartbreaking. Never have I loved someone so much as I love you and I know you loved me lots too. Hugs & kisses Your wife xxxx

On 11th August, I finally laid you down to rest in the lovely rose bed where your Mum and Dad are. It was a very emotional day for all of us to think that I went with you and your Dad when we scattered your mum's ashes, again when we scattered your Dad's ashes and now when I scattered yours - heartbreaking. I never dreamt in a million years that you would go so soon and you only being 71 years old. I thought we would grow old together and look after each other in our old age. There isn't a day that goes by without me talking to you and remembering the lovely, happy life we had before that terrible disease took you away. Some days are just OK, others are terrible. One of your favourite songs came on the radio the other day and I just fell apart. "Somewhere over the rainbow" by Eva Cassidy which I had played at your funeral. Since then I have been unwell and have had vertigo and you weren't here to look after me but I know you were looking down at me and keeping me safe. Yesterday (1 Sept) I went to the Home for the coffee morning and thought I could cope but as soon as I went through the door, I collapsed in tears. It was too painful to think that you will never be there again helping me with the garden and going to events. How I miss your funny sense of humour, how I miss you FULL STOP. I'll never stop loving you, ever All my love xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Kids together at school over 6o years of a great friendship. And some very nice life changing experiences due to him Loved him a like a brother Thanks Ray xx